A moment of appreciation

Cleon.

My Wife.

My Love.

The center of all that I have become.

What would my blog be without a vote of thanks to the one who never gives up on me.

Our story may not be a fairytale but each moment with you is a dream come true. I may not be the most religious person but I prayed for you and God delivered.
Your faith makes up for my lack thereof and it serves as a constant reminder that we never need to be lonely and in that regard I am abundantly blessed to have you as my life partner.You do more for me than is expected from any person and I have never felt a selfless love like you grant me. Your drive, your passion and your lust for life gives me a much needed wake up when all I want to do is creep in a cave and never see the sun again.
Our complementing personalities make for few dull moments. I see no flaws in you, even though you see many in yourself. What you see as flaws are just what makes you unique and enhance your identity, without them you would not be the identifiable personality that brings joy to so many.
I have to admit, I was late to fall in love with you. My broken trust in people made me blind to what you had to offer. I rejected you because I could not trust myself enough to let you in for fear of hurt and betrayal.
This was never fair on you and for that I am sorry.
I have begun to realise thou that as time went on my guards fell and I have gained a newfound freedom that can only be attributed to your selflessness and refusal to give up on me.
For that I am eternally grateful.
For the first time it feels like my life is finally coming together and a calming clarity has been found in your embrace.

I am jealous of our kids yes. They took a piece of you from me that I enjoyed and savoured while they were not around and how could I not be? You made me the center of your world and we adventured as an unstoppable force. I do feel like a rug has been swept out from under me.
Although I at times yearn for those days, I am filled with nothing but gratitude and awe at seeing you gift them with that same endearment that you once showered me with. That is when I realise it is their time now. We will have many more moments together in our lifetime, till death us do part but they need you most now. The love and attention you gift them is beyond a fail for a word, perfect.
I have always been a skeptic of love, seeing relationships as nothing more than a way to not feel lonely from time to time, shying away from the intricacies of commitment and fearing the monotony of monogamy.
You changed me, healed me and accepted me for who I am.
I owe you my life and would gladly trade my everything to see that beautiful smile of yours each day forever more.

I love you too much.